crawling by..

My dr's appt is in an hour and a half... and I feel like time has come to a very slow crawl.

I have all these questions I want to ask, but as each minute passes I forget each and every question I want to ask. And I feel a little shy about writing it all down and taking a note pad into my appt. I just want the words/questions to flow naturally.

And since IUI has been such a triumphant task I am trying to overcome, I am finding the slower time crawls by, the more I'm starting to rethink it all. Maybe I should just load up on every fertility vitamin out there and try that? Should I start trying with medical procedures? What if the IUI fails? I'll feel like a complete failure.. more then I already do.

I told my DS today that "mommy has to go to the dr's" -- he asked "why?" and I said "because mommy is broken!" and he, without skipping a beat, said "No, mommy not broken, mommy fixed!" I thought that was so cute.. it helped me feel a little less of a failure.

Here's a little something to leave you with...

Why is it when you've had a tubal ligation you're referred to as "fixed" but when you are infertile you feel BROKEN??