Early Christmas Present...

Today I got an early Christmas present!

Are you dying to know what it is??

Well I am going to share this news with my blog readers before anyone else, including DH..

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AF ARRIVED ONE DAY EARLY!!!

*SOBS*

Today sucks! I am such an emotional mess. This is the first cycle I have ever cried when AF arrived. The past few cycles I've tried to remain positive and just tell myself "there's always next time"... but today... today there is no positive pep talk. Today I just want to cry and throw myself a pity party.

I feel like a failure. And for anyone that has TTC and was unsuccessful knows just what I mean. I feel like something is wrong with me. Like I am broken. A woman's body is made to create and bear children, and here I am unable to do that. I just feel like poop. I HATE wanting something so bad and having no control over it. It hurts.

I could go on and on about how depressed and shitty I feel, but I'm just adding fuel to my own pity party fire. Just thought I'd update to let you know I failed. Yet again.

Yup, you guessed it, "there's always next time...."