PEE ON A STICK!!! COME ON!! WHAT ARE YOU WAITING FOR?!?!
So just hold your horses and let me finish.
DH has been asking for the last few days if I'm pregnant. Apparently I've been having lots of cravings (which is natural to me), acting more moody (again, totally natural), and just different. So after waiting for AF or any sign of her and not getting anything, I gave in. We were at walmart and we picked up some FRER's. I was impressed that he was all into it, this was the first time he's bought them with me, and when he thought they were in a locked shelf he even asked the sales associate. (I always try to buy them nonchalantly and head straight for the self checkout). Anyways.. we get home and he tells me to go POAS. I have to remind him I don't pee on command, and he'd have to wait until I have to pee.
Do I sound very enthusiastic about POAS? No? That's cause I'm not. I've peed on about 50 billion pregnancy tests in the last year, all have been BFN's (and some have had evap lines), I feel like every flippin test I take is going to be negative. I've felt nauseated, bloated, sore boobs, and every other pregnancy symptom you can think of, but it's always just a false alarm. This cycle was no different. I believe that it will eventually happen, we will get pregnant, but I can't help but feel like it's never going to happen. Does that make sense?
So I'm upstairs doing my thing when I got the urge to pee. Went in the bathroom and POAS. Thank you FRER for changing your tests so there are two ghost lines when the pee runs across, and then wala- like every pee stick in the past, only 1 line appears. Yup. NOT PREGNANT.
I threw my pity party, soaked in a hot bath, cried a little, and now I'm here, blogging about it. On to another month. On to the 1 year mark. This is the 1 year mark you DON'T want to make it to... but I did. I just hope I don't make it to the 2 year mark...
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